Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Calamity.
Who will be there to call friend or foe;
Acquaintances; and the maintenance that will need to be done from past relations..
Pointless
The loves lost; the apathetic feeling one has against the world when everything is ultimately done….
The stories they shall tell of the untold
Fore what was really held in secrecy
Should we not dwell on what we never knew?
Or should we make a calamity of what could have been…an untouchable undying emotion that deeply supresses the yearning of the heart and the burning touch of the skin from the one you call lover and friend…
Those closest to you far by miles now…why?…inquiring of answers I will have to fend for myself….
I wonder if those who love me now will hate me later.”
Written By: Shaunda and Regina
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Just a Release....
Just a quick blurb, back later with a another blog.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
For the Analytical Person
Spring break week definitely came and went, was definitely a blur. For every old person that exits your life does a new one come in? For me that seems to be the case. To basically sum up spring break for me, it was random more random then spontaneous, very chill, very frustrating at moments, but overall one of my better spring breaks. Of course laying on the beaches of Puerto Rico would have been ideal, but I’m glad I stayed home for a change I’ve gained a lot of opportunities and surprisingly became closer with my girls. So I’m sitting here wondering what this blog should specifically be about, I know a blog is suppose to showcase your thoughts and emotions but it’s just not my style to get that personal on here, just a personal person, so I speak loosely on events that might inhabit my life. So I want to title this blog “For the analytical person”.
Speaking of the list, What really is the take on guys being fell led on? Really is there a problem for guys and girls just to be friends without putting much thought into it. What ever did happen to casual friendships, hmm who knows.
Well I’m done with the randomness, this blog really is a assortment of idea’s and questions maybe I can turn into bigger blogs later.
Later Days Kids.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Blurb.
Just a short thought.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Time
I was thinking that maybe I need to cherish these college days more than I do and stop overanalyzing everybody every damn day. I'm sitting here surrounded by all my girls and realize that I probably won't have these day in about 3 or 4 years. Where I have no worries in the world pay hardly any bills and the only thing being asked of me is to further my education when will this ever happen in my life time again. Hmmm never. As much as I want to go against the grain of not having a new years resolution maybe one is called for in this type of situation.
News Years Resolution: Become more free spirited.
I just need to realize these are my younger days I have to realize these are probably my friends for life and I'm pretty content with the bunch that I have chosen.
On the other hand life has chosen to deal me a different set of cards, maybe I shouldn't jinx anything so I won't speak of it just yet. :D
Well this is a rather short blurb of what was on my mind I shall be back later.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
Music and It's Times
Man o Man, so I'm listening to "Friend or Foe" Jay-Z, for those who don't know, and it just put me in a state of mind like wow the evolution of music has, well to the obvious eye, downgraded. I often wonder how it would be to live in the mid-90's being my age as of right now, it seems like the vibe of music was so much stronger people actually enjoyed it and just didn't release bullshit tracks for the money. That whole vibe that whole feel of the music of urban HIP HOP/RAP and R&B in general was RAW back then, even if it was mainstream, which most of it was. IT WAS REAL. [hmph] I feel that maybe YOU have to be a music head to relate but artist nowadays release, well stuff for the clubs and the clubs only. SHIT, I want music that I can vibe with..well whenever I want to. I can't really ask of much of any artist nowadays people have no such originality left [its fuckin' terrible]. I do commend the artist that have not jumped on the money bandwagon and stayed true to actually pleasing their fans and releasing shit that isn't dumbed down. [LUPE]
uhhh on another note something that really pissed me off while I was listening to music was Teedra Moses. Complex Simplicity her first album has to be the most raw and original sound I have heard in a long time. You can feel what she says every song is different she's so versatile and that's what I love in an artist. Every rhythm and every word spoken it's like falling into your own thoughts and just floating [unexplainable feeling]. So much for that, I was browsing her myspace page to listen to her new tracks for her [long awaited second album] and she has a MIXTAPE, sounds nothing like her. HMMM a little back ground information on Teedra is basically she is a very UNDER RATED artist that had a marketing team that didn't do shit for her [she signed under Lil' Jon what do you expect?] This new sound of hers sounds like a publicity stunt, or maybe its something new that's she's trying to do, but my thing is stick your roots! UGH. I loved her first album so much and was ABSOLUTELY disappointed by this mixtape she's already released, what happened to the second album? Taking skips and leaps into the wrong direction much....
Lastly should I even start on Lauryn Hill? Where are you? I kind of don't blame her for abandoning her fans because I feel as if she would have released another album now [highly anticipated, well to half of her fan base now] it might have not been the Lauryn we fell in loved with. Granted she does have a family and such but still that voice of hers should NOT go unused..
I could write about music forever, maybe in other blogs I won't bore you non-music heads.
Well that's my little spiel for this morning....
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Random Tangent

Old Poem.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Mind Over Matter
Hmm, where should I start with this subject, to be honestly I am a relationship type of gal but at the end of the day my independence seems to reign over the whole concept of being with someone, well in this point in time. I honestly haven't been in a whole hearted real relationship in about 2 years but have found random interest here and there but my big question is do we as humans overlook those who really could be our significant other.
I can say I have faced this problem a time or two in my time and always tried to be dumbfounded about the situation and ask myself as to why I would never date these fellows, we all have many complexies about people and one thing everyone has in common is shallowness.
A male friend and I were having a conversation about why people have specific molds that they want their significant others to fit in of course I agree yeah you need to have standards and of course don't settle but perfection is nonexistent.
My friend offered up a very good scenario one that was indepth but hey, let me put into to a nutshell...
Scenario: You have a bangin' ass guy or girl, physically speaking, and this bangin' ass guy or girl good as hell at pleasing you yet you can't have a decent conversation with this nigga or bitch that you some how one way or another are involved with.
Of course the outer beauty, or ugliness [if you will] is what you see first but past that first initial reaction of attraction what do you have. See people have this complex about physical nature and or attraction and I must agree to disagree about those who say "looks do matter". BULLSHIT. It urks me to think people do not see past this complex but hey everyone isn't me. I'm not saying looks are factored out but past the looks where do you go from there..... Of course I am one of those girls who is willing to give a person chance because I am more attracted to the intellect of a guy then their overalll looks because hey I might grow old with this guy, the outer beauty fades away but the intellect of the human brain never demises [unless other complications come along] but at the end of the day people may want to disagree, well a lot of people will disagree with what I'm saying but who cares.
Maybe I'm just one of those people who haven't stumbled over a person who has the looks and the personality. I guess at the end of the day shallowness is a complex everyone falls victim to, even myself but hey I try to avoid it. [yeah I sort of contradict myself throughout this blog but hey I'm trying to make a valid point]
Maybe you should to, because that one that you overlooked might be wifed [hubbied] up by the time you realize...
Good day all.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Fitting into the Mold

Real friendships seem hard to come by or it just may be me being the observant person that I am analyzing every ones friendships expect my own? Who knows, I can say over the past 2 to 3 years friendships seem to be nothing to people I’ve witness best friends talk about each other as if they hadn’t just been on the phone 5 minutes ago sharing stuff you don’t share with other people. Maybe it is just me and my anal ways to see that friendships aren’t SHIT to anyone anymore. I tend to hold my tongue for people, sugar coat things and in essence it is usually for my friends, I sometimes feel ashamed to say that I can’t share personal information or issues with a friend as they can with me. It is wrong? No I’ve learned that it is not, maybe friendships are my downfalls and I tend to overanalyze people but if I can’t share personal information with them what is the purpose of the friendship in the first place? Wow, so in essence to me actually writing that ongoing thought out I take this issue further to address another issue and ask myself really why are these specific people are in my life? I had a very interesting conversation with someone I wouldn’t call one of my best friends, but a very close one someone I could confide in, and this person brought to light that you don’t have to in turn confide in them as they would you, that doesn’t justifiably make the friendship. The person might be someone you could hang around for a good time, but in my mind that is someone you call an associate. Definitions can vary from person to person and I see my definition of friendship and the many sub points that it consist of are different from others.
At the end of the day I still let life flow, I feel that if I purposely let go some of these friendships that I question what was the purpose for them falling into my path in the first place? I guess its one of those things that you just have to think about but I’ve come to a point where I’m tired of thinking, I do love my BESTFRIENDS and close friends and can only count on my both hands those I really talk to and share things with, my theory has always been quality over quantity. So I see most people don’t follow this theory, but hey they aren’t me. I’m just one of those odd puzzle pieces that got left in the rain overnight and when trying to be put back into the puzzle it just doesn’t work, and in the end I have no problem with that.
Good Night World.
Sparkle